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I need to clear some things up

I know in some of my posts I've written about how much hate I currently feel toward her and because of her.  The truth is, I'm not mad at her. I'm still in love with her. I still want to find a way to have her in my life. And I know she'll probably never read this, but I'm sorry for everything I've said. All the abuse I put you through. You never deserved any of it. I'll always Love you and I'll always need you.

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